.....(; >▽)o".....

One of the next steps I decided myself is getting a part-time job in Australia~

All of my friends who have working holiday visas have full-time jobs, part-time jobs or casual jobs even though they also go to language schools.

When I saw my friend working in Subway(a popular chain fast food shop) in city(busy place), I was well impressed by her strength.

Every time I hear about my housemate’s work in the nursing house, I can feel she is getting strong especially mentally. So, I can respect her~~

I think people who live by themselves independently in the term of financially and mentally are cool. I want to be such a person. So, my next step is making money by myself!!

と言うことで、お仕事探し。

(Especially I wanted to work at a coffee shop, because I am a big fan of coffee.)

Gloria Jean's

-They don’t need new staff members for the time being.

う～。。

The coffee shop at the next station

-The moment I saw the line of customers, I felt really scared by imagining I work there.ちょっと考えるの早すぎですが。。

For the next 30 min..

Think, think , think…

I come here because I want to work here, but I don’t know they need more staff members, so!? all I have to do is asking to them..But, I wonder how they feel if I ask so with my poor English. But, I want to try..But, I don’t need to put myself into pressure. Too much for me..? Or is it escaping from trying new things..?

I could already expect I would feel shy to submit my resume in the last minute, because I know myself well.. So, I already made my mind not to be shy! ,because I decided myself to get a job. Don’t be shy~~.

のはずだったんですが。。

Finally, I didn’t submit my resume. Too scary for me now.

I felt really sad my courage failed me. That is, I haven’t changed so much since I came here.

With heavy feeling

Coffee shop in city

-They already found new staff members..

う～。

With really heavy feeling,

I went to the Japanese restaurant in my town.

-They are looking for a new waitress. Oh, positive reply~ So, I'm waiting for their reply now. I don't know what they will reply to me yet.

At night, I explained about my day to my Korean housemate( she is a really good listener and adviser for me) like the following:

(Finally, I didn’t submit my resume. Too scary for me now.

I felt really sad my courage failed me. That is, I haven’t changed so much since I came here.)

And,

She said I was brave enough. Thank you for your kind answer~ Thank you very kamusa~

というような Up down　の激しい一日でした。I can understand it doesn’t mean they refuse me , just they don’t need more people now. But, anyway, I can't help being depressed when they say "no". Mmm, I have to be more tough to be my ideal person. いや～、疲れた(**;)

次は、何をしようかな☆

Some people say studying abroad is great,while other say it is just for pleasure. Staying here is really ‘fun’, in fact. I can do anything I want to do, because I have a plenty of time. Paradise~. That is, it is really easy to be kind to myself. How spend my time and what I will do is really up to me.

I can feel my requirement to me is getting higher and higher since I came here.

Before I came here, my goal was getting the enough English score to come to Australia.

Just after I came here, my main concern was improving my English skill.

(because I wanted to express my feeling more.

I didn’t want to say I have studied English for 8 years and my major is a kind of ‘English’ with feeling embarrassed .

And I wanted to surpass the level some people might expect my English would achieve to)

I don’t feel nervous to speak in English any more.

I begin not to hesitate to speak to new people so much. ( maybe )

I ‘enjoy’ chatting with my friends.

I feel my English is getting the ’ color’ to show my characters (a bit) with my own words.

(of course, I have to study English more and more though)

I wanna do something as a plus α of English.

In fact, I can study English in Japan. So, Just studying English is not enough to say it is worth coming to Australia with spending one year and much money after studying English for 8 years.

Studying English is jsut "must"かなって。

So..What is Next?

I'm not sure what is the best way is spending time here for me..but, I decided to move on to the next step anyway to get close to the person I want to be.( matured person!!).